Strength (Fuerza)

Keep calm and have a Herbalife shake! =P

I often speak of strength, but ironically, I don't own that much of strength.
Strength. Or in Spanish, fuerza (well, I'm still learning Spanish, slowly. Pray for me! Eheh!).
The thing about strength is that it is gained and nurtured thoroughly by our actions and mindset. Well, at least that's what I've been told.
Strength often comes in the form of breaking down too. Why? Well, strength doesn't actually mean being strong and acting strong. Sometimes letting go all of those bottled up emotions and just cry it out is strength too. How is it so? Well, it's the strength of finally accepting that sometimes we too are still human, and vulnerability is still in our system of life.

Through pain, we gain strength. The more pain we feel, the stronger we get. Well, it doesn't apply like that always. It all depends on the individual. If they chooses to move on and just let the pain go, then their strength will increase, but if they choose otherwise, then... Hm.

At the moment, I am terribly hurt. Hurt by the fact that the person that I love doesn't love me the way I love him. Well, it's not actually weird for this to happen, for I know I won't be anything close to something that he wants as a wife.
The thing about this lovestruck is that, I'm in love with his strength in faith. Cross my heart, I love him for I know if he's meant for me he can guide me and bring me to Jannah. But... Allah's plan is always mightier than mine.

I am okay, actually. In fact, I am happy that he's with someone far better than me, and my prayers will always be with the both of them. :)

Strength in my sense right now... Hm.
I don't know.

Note to self :
Dear self,
please don't think or crave for love from humans. Allah's love is eternal and there's a reason why he gave you this heartbreak. It is not time yet for you to step into the phase of baitul Muslim. Prepare yourself in the aspect of an individual Muslim first before even thinking of stepping into the next level. The Ummah is dying, and you're busy thinking of yourself and your emotions. Sacrifice. Please do it, for the sake of our Ummah.
Remember the hardships that our Prophet, Muhammad (PBUH), had to go through for the sake of his Ummah... Always keep in mind that, when you are sad now, Allah is always there, always available for you. And always keep in mind that Muhammad (PBUH) will always be thinking of you too. Allah SWT and Muhammad (PBUH) will never ever leave by your side...
Always remember that.
Please do.

Love,
yourself.

PS : Strength comes from Allah SWT. Ask Him for strength to endure every hardship, for He knows what we know not. :')

Life.

First and foremost, on the 18th March 2014 marks the day where PERSISS 13/14 ends their duty, which

academic family =)

also means that my duty as an exco in the academic division for my faculty ended as well. Alhamdulillah, after a year being in PERSISS, all the hard work, joy, tears, anger, and memories really paid off. True, I hadn't given it my all in PERSISS due to my own problems (especially during the first semester of it), but then I began to realize that I'm wasting an opportunity to learn to be a leader and an opportunity to grasp all the values of experience. My full effort was spent last minute in this opportunity, but I must say that it was all worth it.

That's just it, you know. That's how I've been in life. It has always been a last minute thing. I always realize about the importance of things and matters only when it is almost too late. And that's a problem that I don't think I'm solving. Well, being unaware of how dangerous that could be, I haven't thought about it as a problem. But now, I need to learn to be fully aware about many things.

When speaking of life...
I had been on this world, this planet for almost 20 years and I don't think I had liked my life so far. Not that I hate it, but I feel like that there's something missing. And last night, I know what went missing. My spiritual life.
And who's to blame for that? Me.
Why? Well, as normal as it is, I still chooses this temporary world over something that I know and believe to be eternal. And I told myself that I'm clear of my SH goals.

Life...
Something that I really need to learn.
I kinda need time alone from everyone. From college. From families. From friends. From the havoc of this world. A time alone to think, to.... I don't know... Just time alone...

Mi familia~

Lo and behold, ladies and gents, I present to you the faces of my Academic Family. :)
Actually, today's post is just going to be filled with pictures of all my awesome families. Why? Because words can never ever explain or describe how much I truly love them and how much happiness they had given me. I'm not biased or anything, but I simply can't live without them (by Allah's will, that is). I don't have everyone's picture, but, I hope this will do.
Just a post to remind me of how many awesome people I have in life that had always been there for me.

First and foremost, my Academic Family.
How did my Academic Family come to exist? Well, it's simple. I found them and I worked hard to keep them. Alhamdulillah, Allah gave me these faces to stay in my life, through ups and downs. They had been there to cheer me up and to motivate me whenever I'm down and had always been there for me through tears and laughter.

Then there's my Unit Ceramah Family. To be honest, this family is the greatest family so far. Why? Because of this family, I learned to love unconditionally and learned to be more open and be more happy. I remember the times spent together, the laughter we all shared, and though we're no longer under the same organisation, that's okay. Whenever we see each other, we still can share the same smile, the same laughter, the same stories, the same hugs, the same everything. That's how close we are. Though distance separate us, but it's okay. We know that our hearts connects as one and no matter how far we go, we would always be one family. Though the true purpose of this family was just to conduct and create program (talk or forum based programs) every Thursday night, but somehow I find them to be days worth remembering.
The things we learned with each meeting... I love them, a lot. :)

Then there's Nurilsyams. A family I will never forget eternally, fil jannah!
Through here, I learned all things regarding Islam. Hadeeth Seerah, Seerah, the history of our Islamic Caliphate, about Islam and everything. They taught me about Aqeedah, Akhlak, Tauheed and etcetra.
Though together isn't much now, but it's okay. There's always a reason for everything, and our partings are nothing, cause we know one day we will be united again. In Jannah, insyaAllah! :'D

Ahaaaaa.. There's so many other family I have, but these 3 are just awesome.

But, let's not to forget this one....
*drum rolls*

Mi familia. :)

Well, completion is null but it's better than having none.

Aaaaaa.... I'm done. u_u