Life.

First and foremost, on the 18th March 2014 marks the day where PERSISS 13/14 ends their duty, which

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also means that my duty as an exco in the academic division for my faculty ended as well. Alhamdulillah, after a year being in PERSISS, all the hard work, joy, tears, anger, and memories really paid off. True, I hadn't given it my all in PERSISS due to my own problems (especially during the first semester of it), but then I began to realize that I'm wasting an opportunity to learn to be a leader and an opportunity to grasp all the values of experience. My full effort was spent last minute in this opportunity, but I must say that it was all worth it.

That's just it, you know. That's how I've been in life. It has always been a last minute thing. I always realize about the importance of things and matters only when it is almost too late. And that's a problem that I don't think I'm solving. Well, being unaware of how dangerous that could be, I haven't thought about it as a problem. But now, I need to learn to be fully aware about many things.

When speaking of life...
I had been on this world, this planet for almost 20 years and I don't think I had liked my life so far. Not that I hate it, but I feel like that there's something missing. And last night, I know what went missing. My spiritual life.
And who's to blame for that? Me.
Why? Well, as normal as it is, I still chooses this temporary world over something that I know and believe to be eternal. And I told myself that I'm clear of my SH goals.

Life...
Something that I really need to learn.
I kinda need time alone from everyone. From college. From families. From friends. From the havoc of this world. A time alone to think, to.... I don't know... Just time alone...