Strength (Fuerza)

Keep calm and have a Herbalife shake! =P

I often speak of strength, but ironically, I don't own that much of strength.
Strength. Or in Spanish, fuerza (well, I'm still learning Spanish, slowly. Pray for me! Eheh!).
The thing about strength is that it is gained and nurtured thoroughly by our actions and mindset. Well, at least that's what I've been told.
Strength often comes in the form of breaking down too. Why? Well, strength doesn't actually mean being strong and acting strong. Sometimes letting go all of those bottled up emotions and just cry it out is strength too. How is it so? Well, it's the strength of finally accepting that sometimes we too are still human, and vulnerability is still in our system of life.

Through pain, we gain strength. The more pain we feel, the stronger we get. Well, it doesn't apply like that always. It all depends on the individual. If they chooses to move on and just let the pain go, then their strength will increase, but if they choose otherwise, then... Hm.

At the moment, I am terribly hurt. Hurt by the fact that the person that I love doesn't love me the way I love him. Well, it's not actually weird for this to happen, for I know I won't be anything close to something that he wants as a wife.
The thing about this lovestruck is that, I'm in love with his strength in faith. Cross my heart, I love him for I know if he's meant for me he can guide me and bring me to Jannah. But... Allah's plan is always mightier than mine.

I am okay, actually. In fact, I am happy that he's with someone far better than me, and my prayers will always be with the both of them. :)

Strength in my sense right now... Hm.
I don't know.

Note to self :
Dear self,
please don't think or crave for love from humans. Allah's love is eternal and there's a reason why he gave you this heartbreak. It is not time yet for you to step into the phase of baitul Muslim. Prepare yourself in the aspect of an individual Muslim first before even thinking of stepping into the next level. The Ummah is dying, and you're busy thinking of yourself and your emotions. Sacrifice. Please do it, for the sake of our Ummah.
Remember the hardships that our Prophet, Muhammad (PBUH), had to go through for the sake of his Ummah... Always keep in mind that, when you are sad now, Allah is always there, always available for you. And always keep in mind that Muhammad (PBUH) will always be thinking of you too. Allah SWT and Muhammad (PBUH) will never ever leave by your side...
Always remember that.
Please do.

Love,
yourself.

PS : Strength comes from Allah SWT. Ask Him for strength to endure every hardship, for He knows what we know not. :')